I am just apathetic enough
To not wish you dead,
Just barely
If I could rip your DNA off me,
I would
I know what it would cost
The darker shade of my skin
The timbre of my vocal chords
I treasure them both dearly
But to purge myself of you
It wouldn’t even register as a sacrifice
Because the simple truth is
Your dying would solve a lot of problems
Not for me, I take care of myself
But for others who seem to care
For an inexplicable reason
That’s just out of my reach somehow
And I am so glad that it is
Because this obsession of yours
The devastation it wrecked
Promises made to living forgotten
In favor of dead that couldn’t care less
You sure have got time now
Not everyone else does
Not everyone wants to spare any, to you, at least
You can placate and agree
But you’ve long been obsolete
The least you could do
Was not desecrate my one holy thing
But you couldn’t help yourself
For whatever fucking reason
That I again cannot see for the life of me
And now I can’t go home
Maybe the technicality of good
Is enough for some people
But all I see is
The man who pawned her jewelry
Living in the room
Of a man who loved his daughter
So you see,
Not wishing you dead
Even that hasn’t been easy
But I’ll manage
Just fucking barely