Does this whole
I miss him — But can you really if you never talked all that much?
You chose denial and ignored his dying incessant monologue ever just shut the fuck up?
I wanna feel however I feel — Pedestrian, fake even
And have it not psychoanalyzed immediately after
To make it less noisy, is there anything I can shoot up?
Then there’s this whole
I want love — But isn’t that just watching them die?
Ignorant, narcissistic AND a liar, are we?* Which would never even for a second let up
I just wanna have something — A mediocre romance
An executioner who’ll love me enough
To end my suffering when my monologue has shut up
Yes, I do see the irony
I can never not see it